CONFERENCE OF ABBOT ABRAHAM.
ON MORTIFICATION.
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How we laid bare the secrets of our thoughts to
Abbot Abraham.
THIS twenty-fourth Conference of Abbot Abraham[223] is by the favour of Christ produced,
which concludes the traditions and decisions of all the Elders; and
when by the aid of your prayers it has been finished, as the number
mystically corresponds to that of the four and twenty Elders who are
said in the holy Apocalypse[224] to
offer their crowns to the Lamb, we think that we shall have paid the
debt of all our promises. And henceforth if these four and twenty
Elders of ours have been crowned with any glory for the sake of their
teaching, they shall with bowed heads offer it to the Lamb who was
slain for the salvation of the world: for He it was Who vouschafed for
the honour of His name to grant to them such exalted feelings and to
us whatever words were needful to set forth such profound thoughts.
And the merits of His gift must be referred to the Author of all good,
to whom the more is owed, as the more is paid. Therefore with anxious
confession we laid before this Abraham the impulse of our thoughts,
whereby we were urged by daily perplexities of our mind to return to
our country and revisit our kinsfolk. For from this the greatest
reason for our desire sprang, because we remembered that our kinsfolk
were endowed with such piety and goodness that we felt sure that they
would never interfere with our purpose, and we constantly reflected,
that we should gain more good out of their earnestness, and should be
hampered by no cares about bodily matters, and no trouble in providing
food, as they would gladly minister abundantly to the supply of all
our wants, and besides this we were feeding our souls on the hope of
empty joys, as we thought that we should gain the greatest good from
the conversion[225] of many, who were
to be turned to the way of salvation by our example and instructions.
Then besides this the very spot, where was the ancestral possession of
our forefathers, and the delightful pleasantness of the neighbourhood
was painted before our eyes, how pleasantly and suitably it stretched
away to the desert, so that the recesses of the woods would not only
delight the heart of a monk, but would also furnish him with a
plentiful supply of food.[226] And
when we explained all this to the aforesaid old man, in a
straightforward way, according to the faith of our conscience, and
showed by our copious tears that we could no longer resist the
violence of the impulse, unless the grace of God came to our rescue by
the healing which he, could give, he waited for a long time in silence
and at last sighed deeply and said:
How the old man exposed our errors.
THE feebleness of your ideas shows that you have not yet renounced
worldly desires nor mortified your former lusts. For as the wandering
character of your desires testifies to the sloth of your heart, this
pilgrimage and absence from your kinsfolk, which you ought rather to
endure with your heart, you do endure only with the flesh. For all
these things would have been buried and altogether driven out of your
hearts, if you had got hold of the right method of renunciation, and
the main reason for the solitude in which we dwell. And so I see that
you are labouring under that infirmity of sluggishness, which is thus
described in Proverbs: "Every sluggard is always desiring
something;" and again: "Desires kill the slothful."[227] For in our case too these supplies
of worldly conveniences, which you have described, would not be
wanting, if we believed that they were appropriate to our calling, or
thought that we could get out of those delights and pleasures as much
profit as that which is gained from this squalor of the country and
bodily affliction. Nor are we so deprived of the solace of our
kinsfolk, that those who delight to support us with their substance
should fail us, were it not that this saying of the Saviour meets us
and excludes everything that contributes to the support of this flesh,
as He says: "He who doth not leave (or hate) father and mother
and children and brethren cannot be My disciple."[228] But if we were altogether deprived
of the protection of our parents, the services of the princes of this
world would not be wanting, as they would most thankfully rejoice to
minister to our necessities with prompt liberality. And supported by
their bounty, we should be free from the care of preparing food, were
it not that this curse of the prophet terribly frightened us. For
"Cursed," he says, "is the man that putteth his hope in
man;" and: "Put not your trust in princes."[229] We should also at any rate place
our cells on the banks of the river Nile and have water at our very
doors, so as not to be obliged to carry it on our necks for four
miles, were it not that the blessed Apostle rendered us indefatigable
in enduring this labour, and cheered us by his words, saying:
"Every one shall receive his own reward according to his
labour."[230] Nor are we
ignorant that there are even in our country some pleasant recesses,
where plenty of fruits, and pleasant gardens, and fertile ground would
furnish the food we need with the slightest bodily efforts on our
part, were it not that we were afraid lest that reproach might apply
to us, which is directed against the rich man in the gospel:
"Because thou hast received thy consolation in this
life."[231] But as we despise
all these things and scorn them together with all the pleasures of
this world, we delight only in this squalor, and prefer to all
luxuries this dreadful and vast desert, and cannot compare any riches
of a fertile soil to these barren sands, as we pursue no temporal
gains of this body, but the eternal rewards of the spirit. For it is
but little for a monk to have once made his renunciation, i.e., in the
early days of his conversion to have disregarded the present world,
unless he continues to renounce it daily. For to the very end of this
life we must with the prophet say this: "And I have not desired
the day of man, Thou knowest."[232] Wherefore also the Lord says in the
gospel: "If any man will come after Me, let him deny himself and
take up his cross daily and follow Me."[233]
Of the character of the districts which anchorites
ought to seek.
AND therefore by him who is exercising anxious care over the purity of
his inner man, those districts should be sought, which do not by their
fruitfulness and fertility invite his mind to the trouble of
cultivating them, nor drive him forth from his fixed and immovable
position in his cell, and force him to go forth to some work in the
open air, and so, his thoughts being as it were poured forth openly,
scatter to the winds all his concentration of mind and all the
keenness of his vision of his aim. And this cannot be guarded against
or seen by anyone at all however careful and watchful, except one who
continually keeps his body and soul shut up and enclosed in walls,
that, like a splendid fisherman, looking out for food for himself by
the apostolic art, he may eagerly and without moving catch the swarms
of thoughts swimming in the calm depths of his heart, and surveying
with curious eye the depths as from a high rock, may sagaciously and
cunningly decide what he ought to lure to himself by his saving hook,
and what he can neglect and reject as bad and nasty fishes.
What sorts of work should be chosen by
solitaries.
EVERYONE therefore who constantly perseveres in this watchfulness will
effectually fulfil what is very plainly expressed by the prophet
Habakkuk: "I will stand upon my watch, and ascend upon the rock,
and will look out to see what He shall say to me, and what I may
answer to Him that reproveth me."[234] And how difficult and tiresome this
is, is very clearly shown by the experience of those who live in the
desert of Calamus or Porphyrion.[235]
For though they are separated from all the cities and dwellings of men
by a longer stretch of desert than the wilderness of Scete (since by
penetrating seven or eight days' journey into the recesses of the vast
wilderness, they scarcely arrive at their hiding places and cells) yet
because there they are devoted to agriculture and not in the least
confined to the cloister, whenever they come to these squalid
districts in which we are living, or to Scete, they are annoyed by
such harassing thoughts and such anxiety of mind that, as if they were
beginners and men who had never given the slightest attention to the
exercises of solitude, they cannot endure the life of the cells and
the peace and quietness of them, and are at once driven forth and
obliged to leave them, as if they were inexperienced and novices. For
they have not learnt to still the motions of the inner man, and to
quell the tempests of their thoughts by anxious care and persevering
efforts, as, toiling day after day in work in the open air, they are
moving about all day long in empty space, not only in the flesh but
also in heart; and pour forth their thoughts openly as the body moves
hither and thither. And therefore they do not notice the folly of
their mind in longing for many things, nor can they put a check upon
its vague discursiveness; and as they cannot bear sorrow of spirit
they think that the fact of a continuance of silence is unendurable,
and those who are never tired by hard work in the country, are beaten
by silence and worn out by the length of their rest.
That anxiety of heart is made worse rather than
better by restlessness of body.
NOR is it wonderful if one who lives in a cell, having his thoughts
collected together as it were in a narrow cloister, is oppressed by a
multitude of anxieties, which break out with the man himself from the
confinement of the dwelling, and at once dash here and there like wild
horses. But while they are now roaming at large from their stalls, for
the moment some short and sad solace is enjoyed: but when, after the
body has returned to its own cell, the whole troop of thoughts retires
again to its proper home, the habit of chronic licence gives rise to
worse pangs. Those then who are unable and ignorant how to struggle
against the promptings of their own fancies, when they are harassed in
their cell, by accidie attacking their bosom more violently than
usual, if they relax their strict rule and allow themselves the
liberty of going out oftener, will arouse a worse plague against
themselves by means of this which they fancy is a remedy: just as men
fancy that they can check the violence of an inward fever by a draught
of the coldest water, though it is a fact that by it its fire is
inflamed rather than quenched, as a far worse attack follows after the
momentary alleviation.
A comparison showing how a monk ought to keep guard
over his thoughts.
WHEREFORE a monk's whole attention should thus be fixed on one point,
and the rise and circle of all his thoughts be vigorously restricted
to it; viz., to the recollection of God, as when a man, who is anxious
to raise on high a vault of a round arch, must constantly draw a line
round from its exact centre, and in accordance with the sure standard
it gives discover by the laws of building all the evenness and
roundness required. But if anyone tries to finish it without
ascertaining its centre--though with the utmost confidence in his art
and ability, it is impossible for him to keep the circumference even,
without any error, or to find out simply by looking at it how much he
has taken off by his mistake from the beauty of real roundness, unless
he always has recourse to that test of truth and by its decision
corrects the inner and outer edge of his work, and so finishes the
large and lofty pile to the exact point.[236] So also our mind, unless by working
round the love of the Lord alone as an immovably fixed centre, through
all the circumstances of our works and contrivances, it either fits or
rejects the character of all our thoughts by the excellent compasses,
if I may so say, of love, will never by excellent skill build up the
structure of that spiritual edifice of which Paul is the architect,
nor possess that beautiful house, which the blessed David desired in
his heart to show to the Lord and said: "I have loved the beauty
of Thine house and the place of the dwelling of Thy glory;"[237] but will without foresight raise in
his heart a house that is not beautiful, and that is unworthy of the
Holy Ghost, one that will presently fall, and so will receive no glory
from the reception of the blessed Inhabitant, but will be miserably
destroyed by the fall of his building.
A question why the neighbourhood of our kinsfolk is
considered to interfere with us, whereas it does not interfere in the
case of those living in Egypt.
GERMANUS: It is a very useful and needful rule that is given for the
kind of works that can be done within the cells. For we have often
proved the value of this not only by the example of your holiness,
based on the imitation of the virtues of the apostles, but also by our
own experience. But it is not sufficiently clear why we ought so
thoroughly to avoid the neighbourhood of our kinsfolk, which you did
not reject altogether. For if we see you, blamelessly walking in all
the way of perfection, and not only dwelling in your own country but
some of you having not even retired far from their own village, why
should that which does not hurt you be considered bad for us?
The answer that all things are not suitable for all
men.
ABRAHAM: Sometimes we see bad precedents taken from good things. For
if a man ventures to do the same thing as another, but not with the
same mind and purpose, or not with equal goodness, he will immediately
fall into the snares of deception and death through the very things
from which others gain the fruit of eternal life: As that strong armed
lad matched with the warlike giant in the combat would certainly have
found, if he had been clad in the heavy armour of Saul fit only for
men; and that by which one of stronger age would have laid low
countless hosts of foes, would only have brought certain danger to the
stripling, had he not with prudent discretion chosen the sort of
weapons suitable to his youth, and armed himself against his foul foe
not with breastplate and shield, with which he saw that others were
equipped, but with those weapons with which he was able to fight.
Wherefore it is right for each one of us first to consider carefully
the measure of his powers and in accordance with its limits, to choose
what system he pleases, because though all are good, yet all things
cannot be fit for all men. For we do not assert that because the
anchorite's life is good, it is therefore suited for everybody: for by
many it is felt to be not only useless, but even injurious. Nor
because we are right in taking up the system of the coenobium and the
pious and praiseworthy care of the brethren, do we therefore consider
that it ought to be followed by everybody. So also the fruits of the
care of strangers are very plentiful, but this cannot be taken up by
everybody without loss of patience. Further, the systems of your
county and of this must first be weighed against each other; and then
the powers of men gathered from the constant occurrence of their
virtues or vices must be severally weighed in the opposite scales.
For it may happen that what is difficult or impossible for a man of
one nation in the case of others is somehow turned by ingrained habit
into nature: just as some nations, separated by a wide difference of
region, can bear tremendous force of cold or heat of the sun without
any covering of the body, which certainly others who have no
experience of that inclement sky, could not possibly endure, however
strong they may be. So also do you who with the utmost efforts of
mind and body are trying in this district to get the better of the
nature of your country in many respects, diligently consider whether
in those regions which, as report says, are frozen, and bound by the
cold of excessive unbelief, you could endure this nakedness, if I may
so term it. For to us the fact that our holy life is of long standing
has almost naturally imparted this fortitude in our purpose, and if we
see that you are our equals in virtue and constancy, you in like
manner need not shun the neighbourhood of your kinsfolk and
brethren.
That those need not fear the neighbourhood of their
kinsfolk, who can emulate the mortification of Abbot Apollos.
BUT that you may be able fairly to measure the amount of your strength
by a certain test of strictness I will point out to you what was done
by a certain old man; viz., Abbot Apollos[238] that if your secret scrutiny of your
heart decides that you are not behind this man in purpose and
goodness, you may venture on remaining in your country and living near
your kinsfolk without detriment to your purpose or injury to your mode
of life, and be sure that neither the feeling of nearness nor your
love for the district can interfere with the strictness of this humble
lot,[239] which not only your own will
but the needs also of your pilgrimage enforce upon you in this
country. When then his own brother had come to this old man, whom we
have mentioned, in the dead of night, begging him to come out for a
little while from his monastery, to help him to rescue an ox, which as
he sadly complained had stuck in the mire of a swamp a little way off,
because he could not possibly rescue it alone, Abbot Apollos stolidly
replied to his entreaties: "Why did you not ask our younger
brother who was nearer to you as you passed by than I?" and when
the other, thinking that he had forgotten the death of his brother who
had been long ago buried, and that he was almost weak in his mind from
excessive abstinence and continual solitude, replied: "How could
I summon one who died fifteen years ago?" Abbot Apollos said:
"Don't you know that I too have been dead to this world for
twenty years, and that I can't from my tomb in this cell give you any
assistance in what belongs to the affairs of this present life? And
Christ is so far from allowing me ever so little to relax my purpose
of mortification on which I have entered, for extricating your ox,
that He did not even permit the very shortest intermission of it for
my father's funeral, which would have been undertaken much more
readily properly and piously." And so do ye now search out the
secrets of your breast and carefully consider whether you also can
continually preserve such strictness of mind with regard to your
kinsfolk, and when you find that you are like him in this
mortification of soul, then at last you may know that in the same way
the neighbourhood of your kinsfolk and brothers will not hurt you,
when, I mean, you hold that though they are very close to you, you are
dead to them, in such a way that you suffer neither them to be
benefited by your assistance, nor yourselves to be relaxed by duties
towards them.
A question whether it is bad for a monk to have his
wants supplied by his kinsfolk.
GERMANUS: On this subject you have certainly left no room for any
further uncertainty. For we are sure that we cannot possibly keep up
our present wretched garb, or our daily going barefoot in their
neighbourhood, and that there we should not even procure with the same
labour what is necessary for our sustenance, as here we are actually
obliged to fetch our water on our necks for three miles. For shame on
our part as well as on theirs would not in the least allow us to do
this before them. However how will it hurt our plan of life if we are
altogether set free from anxiety on the score of preparing our food,
by being supplied by them with all things, and so give ourselves up
simply to reading and prayer, that by the removal of that labour with
which we are now distracted we may devote ourselves more earnestly to
spiritual interests alone?
The answer stating what Saint Antony laid down on
this matter.
ABRAHAM: I will not give you my own opinion against this, but that of
the blessed Antony, whereby he confounded the laziness of a certain
brother (overcome by this lukewarmness which you describe) in such a
way as also to cut the knot of your subject. For when one came as I
said to the aforesaid old man, and said that the Anchorite system was
not at all to be admired, declaring that it required greater virtue
for a man to practise what belongs to perfection living among men
rather than in the desert, the blessed Antony asked where he lived
himself, and when he said that he lived close to his relations, and
boasted that by their provision he was set free from all care and
anxiety of daily work, and gave himself up ceaselessly and solely to
reading and prayer without any distraction of spirit, once more the
blessed Antony said: "Tell me, my good friend, whether you grieve
with their griefs and misfortunes, and in the same way rejoice in
their good fortune?" He confessed that he shared in them both.
To whom the old man: "You should know," said he, "that
in the world to come also you will be judged in the lot of those with
whom in this life you have been affected by sharing in their gain or
loss, or joy or sorrow." And not satisfied with this statement
the blessed Antony entered on a still wider field of discussion,
saying: "This mode of life and this most lukewarm condition not
only strike you with that damage of which I spoke (though you do not
feel it now, when somehow you say in accordance with that saying in
Proverbs: `They strike me but I am not grieved: and they mocked me but
I knew it not;' or this that is said in the Prophet: `And strangers
have devoured his strength, but he himself knew it not'[240]), because day after day they
ceaselessly drag down your mind to earthly things, and change it in
accordance with the variations of chance; but also because they
defraud you of the fruits of your hands and the due reward of your own
exertions, as they do not suffer you to be supported by what these
supply, or to procure your daily food for yourself with your own
hands, according to the rule of the blessed Apostle, as he when giving
his last charge to the heads of the Church of Ephesus, asserts that
though he was occupied with the sacred duties of preaching the gospel
yet he provided not only for himself, but also for those who were
prevented by necessary duties with regard to his ministry, saying: `Ye
yourselves know that these hands have ministered to my necessities and
to the necessities of those who were with me.' But to show that he
did this as a pattern to be useful to us he says elsewhere: `We were
not idle among you; neither did we eat any man's bread for nothing,
but in labour and in toil we worked night and day lest we should be
chargeable to any of you. Not as if we had not power; but that we
might give ourselves a pattern unto you, to imitate us.'"[241]
Of the value of work and the harm of idleness.
AND so though we also might have the protection of our kinsfolk, yet
we have preferred his abstinence to all riches, and have chosen to
procure our daily bodily sustenance by our own exertions rather than
rely on the sure provision made by our relations, having less
inclination for idle meditation on holy Scripture of which you have
spoken, and that fruitless attendance to reading than to this
laborious poverty. And certainly we should most gladly pursue the
former, if the authority of the apostles had taught us by their
examples that it was better for us, or the rules of the Elders had
laid it down for our good. But you must know that you are affected by
this no less than by that harm of which I spoke above, because though
your body may be sound and lusty, yet you are supported by another's
contributions, a thing which properly belongs only to the feeble. For
certainly the whole human race, except only that class of monks, who
live in accordance with the Apostle's command by the daily labours of
their own hands, looks for the charity of another's compassion.
Wherefore it is clear that not only those who boast that they
themselves are supported either by the wealth of their relations or
the labours of their servants or the produce of their farms, but also
the kings of this world are supported by charity. This at any rate is
embraced in the definition of our predecessors, who have laid down
that anything that is taken for the requirements of daily food which
has not been procured and prepared by the labour of our own hands,
ought to be referred to charity, as the Apostle teaches, who
altogether forbids the help of another's bounty to the idle and says:
"If a man does not work, neither let him eat."[242] These words the blessed Antony used
against some one, and instructed us also by the example of his
teaching, to shun the pernicious allurements of our relations and of
all who provide the needful charity for our food as well as the
delights of a pleasant home, and to prefer to all the wealth of this
world sandy wastes horrid with the barrenness of nature, and districts
overwhelmed by living incrustations, and for that reason subject to no
control or dominion of man, so that we should not only avoid the
society of men for the sake of a pathless waste, but also that the
character of a fruitful soil may never entice us to the distractions
of cultivating it, whereby the mind would be recalled from the chief
service of the heart, and rendered useless for spiritual aims.
A story of a barber's payments, introduced for the
sake of recognizing the devil's illusions.
FOR as you hope that you can save others also, and are eager to return
to your country with the hope of greater gain, hear also on this
subject a story of Abbot Macarius, very neatly and prettily invented,
which he also gave to a man in a tumult of similar desires, to cure
him by a most appropriate story. "There was," said he,
"in a certain city a very clever barber, who used to shave
everybody for three pence and by getting this poor and wretched sum
for his work, out of this same amount used to procure what was
required for his daily food, and after having taken all care of his
body, used every day to put a hundred pence into his pocket. But
while he was diligently amassing this gain, he heard that in a city a
long way off each man paid the barber a shilling as his pay. And when
he found this out, `how long,' said he, `shall I be satisfied with
this beggary, so as to get with my labour a pay of three pence, when
by going thither I might amass riches by a large gain of shillings?'
And so at once taking with him the implements of his art, and using up
in the expense all that he had got together and saved during a long
time, he made his way with great difficulty to that most lucrative
city. And there on the day of his arrival, he received from everyone
the pay for his labour in accordance with what he had heard, and at
eventide seeing that he had gained a large number of shillings he went
in delight to the butcher's to buy the food he wanted for his supper.
And when he began to purchase it for a large sum of shillings he spent
on a tiny bit of meat all the shillings that he had gained, and did
not take home a surplus of even a single penny. And when he saw that
his gains were thus used up every day so that he not only failed to
put by anything but could scarcely get what he required for his daily
food, he thought over the matter with himself and said: `I will go
back to my city, and once more, seek those very moderate profits, from
which, when all my bodily wants were satisfied, a daily surplus gave a
growing sum to support my old age; which, though it seemed small and
trifling, yet by being constantly increased was amounting to no slight
sum. In fact that gain of coppers was more profitable to me than is
this nominal one of shillings from which not only is there nothing
over to be laid by, but the necessities of my daily food are scarcely
met.'" And therefore it is better for us with unbroken
continuance to aim at this very slender profit in the desert, from
which no secular cares, no worldly distractions, no pride of vainglory
and vanity can detract, and which the pressure of no daily wants can
lessen (for "a small thing that the righteous hath is better than
great riches of the ungodly"[243]) rather than to pursue those larger
profits which even if they are procured by the most valuable
conversion of many, are yet absorbed by the claims of secular life and
the daily leakage of distractions. For, as Solomon says, "Better
is a single handful with rest than both hands full with labour and
vexation of mind."[244] And in
these allusions and inconveniences all that are at all weak are sure
to be entangled, as while they are even doubtful of their own
salvation, and themselves stand in need of the teaching and
instruction of others, they are incited by the devil's tricks to
convert and guide others, and as, even if they succeed in gaining any
advantage from the conversion of some, they waste by their impatience
and rude manners whatever they have gained. For that will happen to
them which is described by the prophet Haggai: "And he that
gathereth riches, putteth them into a bag with holes."[245] For indeed a man puts his gains
into a bag with holes, if he loses by want of self control and daily
distractions of mind whatever he appears to gain by the conversion of
others. And so it results that while they fancy that they can make
larger profits by the instruction of others, they are actually
deprived of their own improvement. For "There are who make
themselves out rich though possessing nothing, and there are who
humble themselves amid great riches;" and: "Better is a man
who serves himself in a humble station than one who gains honour for
himself and wanteth bread."[246]
A question how such wrong notions can creep into
us.
GERMANUS: Very aptly has your discussion shown the error of these
illusions by this illustration: but we should like in the same way to
be taught its origin and how to cure it, and we are equally anxious to
learn how this deception has taken hold of us. For everybody must see
that no one at all can apply remedies to ill health except one who has
already diagnosed the actual origin of the disease.
The answer on the threefold movement of the
soul.
ABRAHAM: Of all faults there is one source and origin, but different
names are assigned to the passions and corruptions in accordance with
the character of that part, or member, if I may so call it, which has
been injuriously affected in the soul: As is sometimes also shown by
the case of bodily diseases, in which though the cause is one and the
same, yet there is a division into different kinds of maladies in
accordance with the nature of the member affected. For when the
violence of a noxious moisture has seized on the body's citadel, i.e.,
the head, it brings about a feeling of headache, but when it affects
the ears or eyes, it passes into the malady of earache or ophthalmia:
when it spreads to the joints and the extremities of the hands it is
called the gout in the joints or hands; but when it descends to the
extremities of the feet, its name is changed and it is termed podagra:
and the noxious moisture which is originally one and the same is
described by as many names as there are separate members which it
affects. In the same way to pass from visible to invisible things, we
should hold that the tendency to each fault exists in the parts and,
if I may use the expression, members of our soul. And, as some very
wise men have laid down that its powers are threefold, either what is
logikon, i.e., reasonable, or
qumikon, i.e., irascible, or epi
qumhtikon, i.e., subject to desire, is sure to be
troubled by some assault. When then the force of noxious passion
takes possession of anyone by reason of these feelings, the name of
the fault is given to it in accordance with the part affected. For if
the plague of sin has infested its rational parts, it will produce the
sins of vainglory, conceit, envy, pride, presumption, strife, heresy.
If it has wounded the irascible feelings, it will give birth to rage,
impatience, sulkiness, accidie, pusillanimity and cruelty. If it has
affected that part which is subject to desire, it will be the parent
of gluttony, fornication, covetousness, avarice, and noxious and
earthly desires.
That the rational part of our soul is corrupt.
AND therefore if you want to discover the source and origin of this
fault, you must recognize that the rational part of your mind and soul
is corrupt, that part namely from which the faults of presumption and
vainglory for the most part spring. Further this first member, so to
speak, of your soul must be healed by the judgment of a right
discretion and the virtue of humility, as when it is injured, while
you fancy that you can not only still scale the heights of perfection
but actually teach others, and hold that you are capable and
sufficient to instruct others, through the pride of vainglory you are
carried away by these vain rovings, which your confession discloses.
And these you will then be able to get rid of without difficulty, if
you are established as I said in the humility of true discretion and
learn with sorrow of heart how hard and difficult a thing it is for
each of us to save his soul, and admit with the inmost feelings of
your heart that you are not only far removed from that pride of
teaching, but that you are actually still in need of the help of a
teacher.
How the weaker part of the soul is the first to
yield to the devil's temptations.
YOU should then apply to this member or part of the soul which we have
described as particularly wounded, the remedy of true humility: for
as, so far as appears, it is weaker than the other powers of the soul
in you, it is sure to be the first to yield to the assaults of the
devil. As when some injuries come upon us, which are caused either by
toil laid upon us or by a bad atmosphere, it is generally the case in
the bodies of men that those which are the weaker are the first to
give in and yield to those chances, and when the disease has more
particularly laid hold of them, it affects the sound parts of the body
also with the same mischief, so also, when the pestilent blast of sin
breathes over us the soul of each one of us is sure to be tempted
above all by that passion, in the case of which its feebler and weaker
portion does not make so stubborn a resistance to the powerful attacks
of the foe, and to run the risk of being taken captive by those, in
the case of which a careless watch opens an easier way to betrayal.
For so Balaam[247] gathered that God's
people could be by a sure method deceived, when he advised, that in
that quarter, wherein he knew that the children of Israel were weak,
the dangerous snares should be set for them, as he had no doubt that
when a supply of women was offered to them, they would at once fall
and be destroyed by fornication, because he was aware that the parts
of their souls which were subject to desire were corrupted. So then
the spiritual wickednesses tempt with crafty malice each one of us, by
particularly laying insidious snares for those affections of the soul,
in which they have seen that it is weak, as for instance, if they see
that the reasonable parts of our soul are affected, they try to
deceive us in the same way that the Scripture tells us that king Ahab
was deceived by those Syrians, who said: "We know that the kings
of Israel are merciful: And so let us put sackcloth upon our loins,
and ropes round our heads, and go out to the king of Israel, and say
to him: Thy servant Benhadad saith: I pray thee, let my soul
live." And thereby he was affected by no true goodness, but by
the empty praise of his clemency, and said: "If he still liveth,
he is my brother;" and after this fashion they can deceive us
also by the error of that reasonable part, and make us incur the
displeasure of God owing to that from which we were hoping that we
might gain a reward and receive the recompense of goodness, and to us
too the same rebuke may be addressed: "Because thou hast let go
from thy hand a man who was worthy of death, thy life shall be for his
life, and thy people for his people."[248] Or when the unclean spirit says:
"I will go forth, and will be a lying spirit in the mouth of all
his prophets,"[249] he certainly
spread the nets of deception by means of the reasonable feeling which
he knew to be exposed to his deadly wiles. And this also the same
spirit expected in the case of our Lord, when he tempted Him in these
three affections of the soul, wherein he knew that all mankind had
been taken captive, but gained nothing by his crafty wiles. For he
approached that portion of his mind which was subject to desire, when
he said: "Command that these stones be made bread;" the part
subject to wrath, when he tried to incite Him to seek the power of the
present life and the kingdoms of this world; the reasonable part when
he said: "If Thou art the Son of God cast Thyself down from
hence."[250] And in these his
deception availed nothing for this reason because he found that there
was nothing damaged in Him, in accordance with the supposition which
he had formed from a false idea. Wherefore no part of His soul yielded
when tempted by the wiles of the foe, "For lo," He saith,
"the prince of this world cometh and shall find nothing in
Me."[251]
A question whether we should be drawn back to our
country by a proper desire for greater silence.
GERMANUS: Among other kinds of illusions and mistakes on our part,
which by the vain promise of spiritual advantages have fired us with a
longing for our country (as your holiness has discovered by the keen
insight of your mind), this stands out as the principal reason, that
sometimes we are beset by our brethren and cannot possibly continue in
unbroken solitude and continual silence, as we should like. And by
this the course and measure of our daily abstinence, which we always
want to maintain undisturbed for the chastening of our body, is sure
to be interfered with on the arrival of some of the brethren. And
this we certainly feel would never happen in our own country, where it
is impossible to find anyone, or scarcely anyone who adopts this
manner of life.
The answer on the devil's illusion, because he
promises us the peace of a vaster solitude.
ABRAHAM: Never to be resorted to by men at all is a sign of an
unreasonable and ill-considered strictness, or rather of the greatest
coldness. For if a man walks in this way, on which he has entered,
with too slow steps, and lives according to the former man, it is
right that none--I say not of the saints--but of any men should visit
him. But you, if you are inflamed with true and perfect love of our
Lord, and follow God, who indeed is love, with entire fervour of
spirit, are sure to be resorted to by men, to whatever inaccessible
spot you may flee, and, in proportion as the ardour of divine love
brings you nearer to God, so will a larger concourse of saintly
brethren flock to you. For, as the Lord says, "A city set on an
hill cannot be hid,"[252] because
"them that love Me," saith the Lord, "will I honour,
and they that despise Me shall be contemned."[253] But you ought to know that this is
the subtlest device of the devil, this is his best concealed pitfall,
into which he precipitates some wretched and heedless persons, so
that, while he is promising them greater things, he takes away the
requisite advantages of their daily profit, by persuading them that
more remote and vaster deserts should be sought, and by portraying
them in their heart as if they were sown with marvellous delights.
And further some unknown and non-existent spots, he feigns to be
well-known and suitable and already given over to our power and able
to be secured without any difficulty. The men also of that country he
feigns to be docile and followers of the way of salvation, that, while
he is promising richer fruits for the soul there, he may craftily
destroy our present profits. For when owing to this vain hope each
one separates himself from living together with the Elders and has
been deprived of all those things that he idly imagined in his heart,
he rises as it were from a most profound slumber, and when awake will
find nothing of those things of which he had dreamed. And so as he is
hampered by larger requirements for this life and inextricable snares,
the devil will not even allow him to aspire to those things which he
had once promised himself, and as he is liable no longer to those rare
and spiritual visits of the brethren which he had formerly avoided,
but to daily interruptions from worldly folk, he will never suffer him
to return even to the moderate quiet and system of the anchorite's
life.
How useful is relaxation on the arrival of
brethren.
THAT most refreshing interlude also of relaxation and courtesy, which
sometimes is wont to intervene because of the arrival of brethren,
although it may seem to us tiresome and what we ought to avoid, yet
how useful it is and good for our bodies as well as our souls you must
patiently hear in few words. It often happens I say not to novices and
weak persons but even to those of the greatest experience and
perfection, that unless the strain and tension of their mind is
lessened by the relaxation of some changes, they fall either into
coldness of spirit; or at any rate into a most dangerous state of
bodily health. And therefore when there occur even frequent visits
from the brethren they should not only be patiently put up with, but
even gratefully welcomed by those who are wise and perfect; first
because they stimulate us always to desire with greater eagerness the
retirement of the desert (for somehow while they are thought to impede
our progress, they really maintain it unwearied and unbroken, and if
it was never hindered by any obstacles, it would not endure to the end
with unswerving perseverance), next because they give us the
opportunity of refreshing the body, together with the advantages of
kindness, and at the same time with a most delightful relaxation of
the body confer on us greater advantage than those which we should
have gained by the weariness which results from abstinence. On which
matter I will briefly give a most apt illustration handed down in an
old story.
How the Evangelist John is said to have shown the
value of relaxation.
IT is said that the blessed John, while he was gently stroking a
partridge with his hands suddenly saw a philosopher approaching him in
the garb of a hunter, who was astonished that a man of so great fame
and reputation should demean himself to such paltry and trivial
amusements, and said: "Can you be that John, whose great and
famous reputation attracted me also with the greatest desire for your
acquaintance? Why then do you occupy yourself with such poor
amusements?" To whom the blessed John: "What is it,"
said he, "that you are carrying in your hand?" The other
replied: "a bow." "And why," said he, "do
you not always carry it everywhere bent?" To whom the other
replied: "It would not do, for the force of its stiffness would
be relaxed by its being continually bent, and it would be lessened and
destroyed, and when the time came for it to send stouter arrows after
some beast, its stiffness would be lost by the excessive and
continuous strain, and it would be impossible for the more powerful
bolts to be shot." "And, my lad," said the blessed
John, "do not let this slight and short relaxation of my mind
disturb you, as unless it sometimes relieved and relaxed the rigour of
its purpose by some recreation, the spirit would lose its spring owing
to the unbroken strain, and would be unable when need required,
implicitly to follow what was right."[254]
A question how we ought to understand what the
gospel says: "My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
GERMANUS: As you have given us a remedy for all delusions, and by
God's grace all the wiles of the devil by which we were harassed, have
been exposed by your teaching, we beg that you will also explain to us
this that is said in the gospel: "My yoke is easy, and My burden
is light."[255] For it seems
tolerably opposed to that saying of the prophet where it is said:
"For the sake of the words of Thy lips I kept hard ways;"
while even the Apostle says: "All who will live godly in Christ
suffer persecutions."[256] But
whatever is hard and fraught with persecutions cannot be easy and
light.
The answer with the explanation of the saying.
ABRAHAM: We can prove by the easy teaching of our own experience that
our Lord and Saviour's saying is perfectly true, if we approach the
way of perfection properly and in accordance with Christ's will, and
mortifying all our desires, and cutting off injurious likings, not
only allow nothing to remain with us of this world's goods (whereby
our adversary would find at his pleasure opportunities of destroying
and damaging us) but actually recognize that we are not our own
masters, and truly make our own the Apostle's words: "I live, yet
not I, but Christ liveth in me."[257] For what can be burdensome, or hard
to one who has embraced with his whole heart the yoke of Christ, who
is established in true humility and ever fixes his eye on the Lord's
sufferings and rejoices in all the wrongs that are offered to him,
saying: "For which cause I please myself in my infirmities, in
reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for
Christ: for when I am weak, then am I strong"?[258] By what loss of any common thing, I
ask, will he be injured, who boasts of perfect renunciation, and
voluntarily rejects for Christ's sake all the pomp of this world, and
considers all and every of its desires as dung, so that he may gain
Christ, and by continual meditation on this command of the gospel,
scorns and gets rid of agitation at every loss: "For what shall
it profit a man if he gain the whole world, but lose his own soul? Or
what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?"[259] For the loss of what will he be
vexed, who recognizes that everything that can be taken away from
others is not their own, and proclaims with unconquered valour:
"We brought nothing into this world: it is certain that we cannot
carry anything out"?[260] By the
needs of what want will his courage be overcome, who knows how to do
without "scrip for the way, money for the purse,"[261] and, like the Apostle, glories
"in many fasts, in hunger and thirst, in cold and
nakedness"?[262] What effort, or
what hard command of an Elder can disturb the peace of his bosom, who
has no will of his own, and not only patiently but even gratefully
accepts what is commanded him, and after the example of our Saviour,
seeks to do not his own will, but the Father's, as He says Himself to
His Father: "Nevertheless not as I will, but as Thou
wilt"?[263] By what wrongs also,
by what persecution will he be frightened, nay, what punishment can
fail to be delightful to him, who always rejoices together with
apostles in stripes, and longs to be counted worthy to suffer shame
for the name of Christ?
Why the Lord's yoke is felt grievous and His burden
heavy.
BUT the fact that to us on the contrary the yoke of Christ seems
neither light nor easy, must be rightly ascribed to our perverseness,
as we are cast down by unbelief and want of faith, and fight with
foolish obstinacy against His command, or rather advice, who says:
"If thou wilt be perfect, go sell (or get rid of) all that thou
hast, and come follow Me,"[264]
for we keep the substance of our worldly goods. And as the devil
holds our soul fast in the toils of these, what remains but that, when
he wants to sever us from spiritual delights, he should vex us by
diminishing these and depriving us of them, contriving by his crafty
wiles that when the sweetness of His yoke and lightness of His burden
have become grievous to us through the evil of a corrupt desire, and
when we are caught in the chains of that very property and substance,
which we kept for our comfort and solace, he may always torment us
with the scourges of worldly cares, extorting from us ourselves that
wherewith we are tortured? For "Each one is bound by the cords
of his own sins," and hears from the prophet: "Behold all
you that kindle a fire, encompassed with flames, walk in the light of
your fire, and in the flames which you have kindled." Since, as
Solomon is witness, "Each man shall thereby be punished, whereby
he has sinned."[265] For the
very pleasures which we enjoy become a torment to us, and the delights
and enjoyments of this flesh, turn like executioners upon their
originator, because one who is supported by his former wealth and
property is sure not to admit perfect humility of heart, not entire
mortification of dangerous pleasures. But where all these implements
of goodness give their aid, there all the trials of this present life,
and whatever losses the enemy can contrive, are endured not only with
the utmost patience, but with real pleasure, and again when they are
wanting so dangerous a pride springs up that we are actually wounded
by the deadly strokes of impatience at the slightest reproach, and it
may be said to us by the prophet Jeremiah: "And now what hast
thou to do in the way of Egypt, to drink the troubled water? And what
hast thou to do with the way of the Assyrians, to drink the water of
the river? Thy own wickedness shall reprove thee, and thy apostasy
shall rebuke thee. Know thou and see that it is an evil and a bitter
thing for thee to have left the Lord thy God, and that My fear is not
with thee, saith the Lord."[266]
How then is it that the wondrous sweetness of the Lord's yoke is felt
to be bitter, but because the bitterness of our dislike injures it?
How is it that the exceeding lightness of the Divine burden becomes
heavy, but because in our obstinate presumption we despise Him by whom
it was borne, especially as Scripture itself plainly testifies to this
very thing saying: "For if they would walk in right paths, they
would certainly have found the paths of righteousness smooth"?[267] It is plain, I say, that it is we,
who make rough with the nasty and hard stones of our desires the right
and smooth paths of the Lord; who most foolishly forsake the royal
road made stony with the flints of apostles and prophets, and trodden
down by the footsteps of all the saints and of the Lord Himself, and
seek trackless and thorny places, and, blinded by the allurements of
present delights, tear our way with torn legs and our wedding garment
rent, through dark paths, overrun with the briars of sins, so as not
only to be pierced by the sharp thorns of the brambles but actually
laid low by the bites of deadly serpents and scorpions lurking there.
For "there are thorns and thistles in wrong ways, but he that
feareth the Lord shall keep himself from them."[268] Of such also the Lord says
elsewhere by the prophet: "My people have forgotten, sacrificing
in vain, and stumbling in their ways, in ancient paths, to walk in
them in a way not trodden."[269]
For according to Solomon's saying: "The ways of those who do not
work are strewn with thorns, but the ways of the lusty are trodden
down."[270] And thus wandering
from the king's highway, they can never arrive at that metropolis,
whither our course should ever be directed without swerving. And this
also Ecclesiastes has pretty significantly expressed saying: "The
labour of fools wearies those who know not how to go to the
city;" viz., that "heavenly Jerusalem, which is the mother
of us all."[271] But whoever
truly gives up this world and takes upon him Christ's yoke and learns
of Him, and is trained in the daily practice of suffering wrong, for
He is "meek and lowly of heart,"[272] will ever remain undisturbed by all
temptations, and "all things will work together for good to
him."[273] For as the prophet
Obadiah says the words of God are "good to him that walketh
uprightly;" and again: "For the ways of the Lord are right,
and the just shall walk in them; but the transgressors shall fall in
them."[274]
Of the good which an attack of temptation brings
about.
AND so by the struggle with temptation the kindly grace of the Saviour
bestows on us larger rewards of praise than if it had taken away from
us all need of conflict. For it is a mark of a loftier and grander
virtue to remain ever unmoved when hemmed in by persecutions and
trials, and to stand faithfully and courageously at the ramparts of
God, and in the attacks of men, girt as it were with the arms of
unconquered virtue, to triumph gloriously over impatience and somehow
to gain strength out of weakness, for "strength is made perfect
in weakness." "For behold I have made thee," saith the
Lord, "a pillar of iron and a wall of brass, over all the land,
to the kings of Judah, and the princes and the priests thereof, and
all the people of the land. And they shall fight against thee and
shall not prevail: for I am with thee to deliver thee, saith the
Lord."[275] Therefore according
to the plain teaching of the Lord the king's highway is easy and
smooth, though it may be felt as hard and rough: for those who piously
and faithfully serve Him, when they have taken upon them the yoke of
the Lord, and have learnt of Him, that He is meek and lowly of heart,
at once somehow or other lay aside the burden of earthly passions, and
find no labour but rest for their souls, by the gift of the Lord, as
He Himself testifies by Jeremiah the prophet, saying: "Stand ye
on the ways and see, and ask for the old paths, which is the good way,
and walk ye in it: and you shall find refreshment for your
souls." For to them at once "the crooked shall become
straight and the rough ways plain;" and they shall "taste
and see that the Lord is gracious,"[276] and when they hear Christ
proclaiming in the gospel: "Come unto Me all ye that labour and
are heavy laden, and I will refresh you," they will lay aside the
burden of their sins, and realize what follows: "For My yoke is
easy, and My burden is light."[277] The way of the Lord then has
refreshment if it is kept to according to His law. But it is we who
by troublesome distractions bring sorrows and troubles upon ourselves,
while we try even with the utmost exertion and difficulty to follow
the crooked and perverse ways of this world. But when in this way we
have made the Lord's yoke heavy and hard to us, we at once complain in
a blasphemous spirit of the hardness and roughness of the yoke itself
or of Christ who lays it upon us, in accordance with this passage:
"The folly of man corrupteth his ways, but he blames God in his
heart;"[278] and as Haggai the
prophet says, when we say that "the way of the Lord is not
right" the reply is aptly made to us by the Lord: "Is not My
way right? Are not your ways rather crooked?"[279] And indeed if you will compare the
sweet scented flower of virginity, and tender purity of chastity to
the foul and fetid sloughs of lust, the calm and security of monks to
the dangers and losses in which the men of this world are involved,
the peace of our poverty to the gnawing vexations and anxious cares of
riches, in which they are night and day consumed not without the
utmost peril to life, then you will prove that the yoke of Christ is
most easy and His burden most light.
How the promise of an hundredfold in this life is
made to those whose renunciation is perfect.
FURTHER also that recompense of reward, wherein the Lord promises an
hundredfold in this life to those whose renunciation is perfect, and
says: "And everyone that hath left house or brethren or sisters
or father or mother or wife or children or lands for My name's sake,
shall receive an hundredfold in the present time and shall inherit
eternal life,"[280] is rightly
and truly taken in the same sense without any disturbance of faith.
For many taking occasion by this saying, insist with crass
intelligence that these things will be given carnally in the
millennium, though they must certainly admit that age, which they say
will be after the resurrection cannot possibly be understood as
present. It is then more credible and much clearer that one, who at
the persuasion of Christ has made light of any worldly affections or
goods, receives from the brethren and partners of his life, who are
joined to him by a spiritual tie, even in this life a love which is an
hundred times better: since it is certain that among parents and
children and brothers, wives and relations, where either the tie is
merely formed by intercourse, or the bond of union by the claims of
relationship, the love is tolerably short lived and easily broken.
Finally even good and duteous children when they have grown up, are
sometimes shut out by their parents from their homes and property, and
sometimes for a really good reason the tie of matrimony is severed,
and a quarrelsome division destroys the property of brothers. Monks
alone maintain a lasting union in intimacy, and possess all things in
common, as they hold that everything that belongs to their brethren is
their own, and that everything which is their own is their brethren's.
If then the grace of our love is compared to those affections where
the bond of union is a carnal love, certainly it is an hundred times
sweeter and finer. There will indeed also be gained from conjugal
continence a pleasure that is an hundred times greater than that which
arises from the union of the sexes. And instead of that joy, which a
man experiences from the possession of a single field or house, he
will enjoy a delight in riches a hundred times greater, if he passes
over to the adoption of sons of God, and possesses as his own all
things which belong to the eternal Father, and asserts in heart and
soul after the fashion of that true Son: "All things that the
Father hath are mine;"[281] and
if no longer tried by that criminal anxiety in distractions and cares,
but free from care and glad at heart he succeeds everywhere to his
own, hearing daily the announcement made to him by the Apostle:
"For all things are yours, whether the world, or things present,
or things to come;" and by Solomon: "The faithful man has a
whole world of riches." [282]
You have then that recompense of an hundredfold brought out by the
greatness of the value, and the difference of the character that
cannot be estimated. For if for a fixed weight of brass or iron or
some still commoner metal, one had given in exchange the same weight
only in gold, he would appear to have given much more than an
hundredfold. And so when for the scorn of delights and earthly
affections there is made a recompense of spiritual joy and the
gladness of a most precious love, even if the actual amount be the
same, yet it is an hundred times better and grander. And to make this
plainer by frequent repetition: I used formerly to have a wife in the
lustful passion of desire: I now have one in honourable sanctification
and the true love of Christ. The woman is but one, but the value of
the love has increased an hundredfold. But if instead of distrusting
anger and wrath you have regard to constant gentleness and patience,
instead of the stress of anxiety and trouble, peace and freedom from
care, instead of the fruitless and criminal vexation of this world the
salutary fruits of sorrow, instead of the vanity of temporal joy the
richness of spiritual delights, you will see in the change of these
feelings a recompense of an hundredfold. And if we compare with the
short-lived and fleeting pleasure of each sin the benefits of the
opposite virtues the increased delights will prove that these are an
hundred times better. For in counting on your fingers you transfer
the number of an hundred from the left hand to the right and though
you seem to keep the same arrangement of the fingers yet there is a
great increase in the amount of the quantity.[283] For the result will be that we who
seemed to bear the form of the goats on the left hand, will be removed
and gain the reward of the sheep on the right hand. Now let us pass on
to consider the nature of those things which Christ gives back to us
in this world for our scorn of worldly advantages, more particularly
according to the Gospel of Mark who says: "There is no man who
hath left house or brethren or sisters or mother or children or lands
for My sake and the gospel's sake, who shall not receive an hundred
times as much now in this time: houses and brethren and sisters and
mothers and children and lands, with persecutions, and in the world to
come life eternal."[284] For he
who for the sake of Christ's name disregards the love of a single
father or mother or child, and gives himself over to the purest love
of all who serve Christ, will receive an hundred times the amount of
brethren and kinsfolk; since instead of but one he will begin to have
so many fathers and brethren bound to him by a still more fervent and
admirable affection. He also will be enriched with an increased
possession of lands, who has given up a single house for the love of
Christ, and possesses countless homes in monasteries as his own, to
whatever part of the world he may retire, as to his own house. For
how can he fail to receive an hundredfold, and, if it is not wrong to
add somewhat to our Lord's words, more than an hundredfold, who gives
up the faithless and compulsory service of ten or twenty slaves and
relies on the spontaneous attendance of so many noble and free born
men? And that this is so you could prove by your own experience, as
since you have each left but one father and mother and home, you have
gained without any effort or care, in any part of the world to which
you have come, countless fathers and mothers and brethren, as well as
houses and lands and most faithful servants, who receive you as their
masters, and welcome, and respect, and take care of you with the
utmost attention. But, I say that deservedly and confidently will the
saints enjoy this service, if they have first submitted themselves and
everything they have by a voluntary offering for the service of the
brethren. For, as the Lord says, they will freely receive back that
which they themselves have bestowed on others. But if a man has not
first offered this with true humility to his companions, how can he
calmly endure to have it offered to him by others, when he knows that
he is burdened rather than helped by their services, because he
prefers to receive attention from the brethren rather than to give it
to them? But all these things he will receive not with careless
slackness and a lazy delight, but, in accordance with the Lord's word,
"with persecutions," i.e., with the pressure of this world,
and terrible distress from his passions, because, as the wise man
testifies: "He who is easy going and without trouble shall come
to want."[285] For not the
slothful, or the careless, or the delicate, or the tender take the
kingdom of heaven by force, but the violent. Who then are the
violent? Surely they are those who show a splendid violence not to
others, but to their own soul, who by a laudable force deprive it of
all delights m things present, and are declared by the Lord's mouth to
be splendid plunderers, and by rapine of this kind, violently seize
upon the kingdom of heaven. For, as the Lord says, "The kingdom
of heaven suffereth violence and the violent take it by
force."[286] Those are certainly
worthy of praise as violent, who do violence to their own destruction,
for, "A man," as it is written, "that is in sorrow
laboureth for himself and does violence to his own
destruction."[287] For our
destruction is delight in this present life, and to speak more
definitely, the performance of our own likes and desires, as, if a man
withdraws these from his soul and mortifies them, he straightway does
glorious and valuable violence to his own destruction, provided that
he refuses to it the pleasantest of its wishes which the Divine word
often rebukes by the prophet, saying: "For in the days of your
fast your own will is found;" and again: "If thou turn away
thy foot from the Sabbath, to do thy will on My holy day, and glorify
him, while thou dost not thy own ways, and thy own will is not found,
to speak a word." And the great blessedness that is promised to
him is at once added by the prophet. "Then," he says,
"shalt thou be delighted in the Lord, and I will lift thee up
above the high places of the earth, and will feed thee with the
inheritance of Jacob thy father. For the mouth of the Lord hath
spoken it."[288] And therefore
our Lord and Saviour, to give us an example of giving up our own
wills, says: "I came not to do My own will, but the will of Him
that sent Me;" and again: "Not as I will, but as Thou
wilt."[289] And this good
quality those men in particular show who live in the coenobia and are
governed by the rule of the Elders, who do nothing of their own
choice, but their will depends upon the will of the Abbot. Finally to
bring this discussion to a close, I ask you, do not those who
faithfully serve Christ, most clearly receive grace an hundredfold in
this, while for His name's sake they are honoured by the greatest
princes, and though they do not look for the praise of men, yet become
venerated in the trials of persecution whose humble condition would
perhaps have been looked down upon even by common folk, either because
of their obscure birth, or because of their condition as slaves, if
they had continued in their life in the world? But because of the
service of Christ no one will venture to raise a calumny against their
state of nobility, or to fling in their teeth the obscurity of their
origin. Nay rather, through the very opprobrium of a humble condition
by which others are shamed and confounded, the servants of Christ are
more splendidly ennobled, as we can clearly show by the case of Abbot
John who lives in the desert which borders on the town of Lycus. For
he sprang from obscure parents, but owing to the name of Christ has
become so well known to almost all mankind that the very lords of
creation, who hold the reins of this world and of empire, and are a
terror to all powers and kings, venerate him as their lord, and from
distant countries seek his advice, and entrust to his prayers and
merits the crown of their empire, and the state of safety, and the
fortunes of war.[290]
In such terms the blessed Abraham discoursed on the origin of and
remedy for our illusion, and exposed to our eyes the crafty thoughts
which the devil had originated and suggested, and kindled in us the
desire of true mortification, wherewith we hope that many also may be
inflamed, even though all these things have been written in a somewhat
simple style. For though the dying embers of our words cover up the
glowing thoughts of the greatest fathers, yet we hope that in the case
of very many who try to remove the embers of our words and to fan into
a flame the hidden thoughts, their coldness will be turned into heat.
But, O holy brethren, I have not indeed been so puffed up by the
spirit of presumption as to give forth to you this fire (which the
Lord came to send upon the earth, and which He eagerly longs to
kindle[291]) in order that by the
application of this warmth I might set on fire your purpose which is
already at a white heat, but in order that your authority with your
children might be greater, if in addition the precepts of the greatest
and most ancient fathers support what you are teaching not by the dead
sound of words but by your living example. It only remains that I who
have been till now tossed about by a most dangerous tempest, should be
wafted to the safe harbour of silence by the spiritual gales of your
prayers.
John Cassian
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